i so predicted my mood today. HAHs -depression mood- i couldnt fall asleep ytd night. was tossing and turning in my bed being so fraustrated over (1) that stupid 'flute' goal and (2) my super horrible stats. every time i close my eyes what i see is floorball. how shots may have came in and how i could have save.

was really down in class. physics tutorial escalated the mood to a point that when it hit recess, i was tearing while trying to do my chem tutorial. sigh. i needed to tell it out. felix wasnt in class, i looked around, no one else was found suitable to tell floorball to. THANKS LEYI =) yeah, i msged her. did pour out to felix. still my "kai xin guo". it just feels better talking to him. every floorball guy i met, they just have to add a little bit of salt onto my wounded pride unintentionally. though floorball is my misery now, somehow i still look forward to training. irony isnt it? HAHs.

3 hours of training - dead tiring. well, there is more time to do goalie stuff but the duration is really draggy. leyi was so on-form la! i'm so proud of her!!! hahhas i dived - during drills! cool pris! =) baby steps. baby steps. unfortuantely i got the taste of the undesireable consequences of diving. my hips are hurting with brusies waiting to be formed. i think i over worked the shoulder muscle too. did that horrible simple double that is so near the post. every time they do that, i just feel super disoriented on court. first round, i let in EIGHT consecutive goals la. oh they did the horrible goalie drill again. i like nearly died doing that. seriously nearly died. stamina is SO NOT THERE. got scolded my miss seah for not being aggressive. was so hoping that i do not need to start off the game. but hahhas FAT HOPE. hee.

was feeling so horrible during game time. i wanted to puke. no matter how hard i tried breathing through my mouth, take out my helmet at every opportunity... it didnt help. first period(guys), i let in an "olei". through my legs. wah. that's it man. my level of anticipation went from zero to negative. after that, i really couldnt take it anymore, i nearly puked on court. lucky isk saw and took over me. i didnt puke la. it couldnt come out. HAHAs but i liked my performance for the rest of the game after i came back from the toilet. =D starting refreshed.

though logically and theoratically i SHOULD skip mz tml. i refused to. NO NO. i want to play this weekend's game against NTU STORM. i super "bu shuang" with that friendly and my stats. AAARRRGGGGHHHHHH. i need to plan my travelling time to ite macpherson.

why so i be envious?
-4 more weeks to block tests-